Every now and then, I get lonely. Not something stubborn hard headed people like myself really enjoy admitting to, but I rather keep it honest. It used to be so much easier to be with someone in my younger days (which seem lightyears ago), courting was simple. Nowadays, dating has become a complexity of mathematical equations that even Albert Einstein would never be able to solve. Does the x fit in with the y…. does the problem even exist and will the parallel lines ever intersect with the perpendicular equation (yes my inner algebra nerd is showing). So I try to think of when dating got so complicated……for me, it was my kids. Now not only are you supposed to like ME….I have to make sure that you are suitable to be around my kids and they like you being around. There has been plenty of times someone got released from the AJ Dream Team because my assistant coaches said give them the ax. Then the wave of social media sites…..Facebook, Twitter, instagram……now Im not only dating you….Im dating everyone on your newsfeed. Thats a lot of pressure…..especially since everyone has any opinion about your life and mine. Oh and all the rules of “we want the world to know all our business but get mad when someone says something”. I am a private person to an extent…..I love to share all the good but hide the bad…No one is perfect but fighting on social media is dumb…talk to each other and resolve that offline face to face. Here is where I really threw a wrench into dating…..I started dating girls. Im not sure if thats a well known fact about me but hey there it is. So now Im a black single mom who is dating women….well sounds like a complete package of crazy with a label saying “going to straight to hell dont pass go dont collect 200″…..but I digress.
As you can see I ramble easily……ahhh yes dating and do fairytales exist…..
I believe in happy endings and magical love that without a doubt are truly amazing. I believe that there are relationships in this world between people that are probably something Disney could never even capture. I believe in soulmates….destiny…and fate. And I truly believe that they can exist with all the complexities that modern technology and non traditional lifestyles that now exist 2014.
I believe the world is a little more open minded to love these days actually. I believe went two people can truly love one another wholeheartedly and fully even with all the obstacles that others or themselves can put in there way. I believe in it so much I wear my glass slippers until midnight almost every night…..I eat poisonous apples from creepy ladies in the woods…..and prick my finger on spindles in hopes of my fairytale coming true….even if it happens some other way. I guess even at 31 I never give up that hope. I remain optimistic not only for myself but for the two little girls that look up to me and still believe in that magical beyond a shadow of doubt type love too.